Courtroom Innocence

                               Crimes against humanity.
                              Once count of displeasure.
                             Two counts of trusting.
                            Three for all breathes
                           taken from empty words.
                          Testify against the innocent.
                         It's the only way to feel power.
                        To win against what doesn't matter.
                       You'll be nothing but 12 little
                      voices in a crowded room.
                     They'll cut you down from the
                    hangmans noose a little to late.
                   You stole her heart and ran away,
                  a crime which can't be forgiven.
                 Crawling on your knees and
                pleading till the sun dies away
               will never be enough.
               You promised too many
              times with fingers crossed.
             Always saying giving up was
            never answer, yet you left
           her in the core of the storm.
          The court room is a last resort.
         Windows full of evergreens.
        Freedom just behind the exit sign.
       Do you remember her mangled torso?
      Tears drying down her cheek as her
     hand reached for the last touch of life?
    You kissed her bluing lips, running
   away from what you always feared;
  being loved for all the right reasons.

Deathly Affection

Misery loves me.
Crawling into bed to stay alive.
How did I go so wrong?

I had the world and let it
slip through my fingertips.
We used to talk for hours

but now it's over.
It was nothing but photography.
Flash, snap, memories.

Don't pretend I never cross your mind
We used to risk everything for a
chance between the sheets.

I took your dignity.
You kept my virginity.
I was blinded by the love in your eyes.

You kept messing with my head.
Truth is, liars turn me on.
Find another me.

I'm nothing but a widow
dressed in the night sky.
I gave you everything you ever wanted.

But this was for my satisfaction.
Kisses on the fingers I crossed,
imprint your iced lips.

But baby don't worry.
My sins are nothing
to dwell upon.

The knife in your back
was only half of me.
Now, I'm finally free.

Beautiful Imperfections

I'm never good enough 

for myself.

Mirrors lashing back with 

shards of every comparison.

Disfiguration.

I believe the lies 

I tell myself.

I can't hold onto this 

broken old soul.

You try and try to 

make me satisfied.

Just hand me the money. 

Let it be over.

Corners with flickering lights 

die away before 

the calm of morning.

Darkness falls across,

finding comfort in the backs 

of my eyelids.

A world of imagination.

You can love me 

just a little longer.

My reflection will 

finally smile, 

not under false
 impressions.

Pinch me.

It was all inside my head.

Cross the road to the other side.

I'll learn to breathe and 

call myself a human being.

Emotions come and go, 

but words stay hidden in 

the swells of my heart.

I'll forgive forever, 

but forgetting the torture 

will never wash over me.

This place is beautiful.

Just like me.

Confidence Soldier

     I'm just an old record 

         being played in reverse.

     You'll never understand 

         the pitch hitting your ears.

     Clear the room to dance 

        with the broken sound.

     I'm only a tumbleweed in

        your farthest thoughts, 

     passing by to save the time.

         Did you know the lights 

     die at midnight?

          Put your faith into the 

     scattered stars to bring

          you back to my heart.

     I'm always thinking about 

          the worst when everything

     is at its best.

          You told me to believe 

     and now I'm flying over 

          all my broken dreams.

     With your hand in mine, 

          I can finally release every mistake.

     Be patient, I can't control 

          the haunting thoughts in my head.

     I'll be a soldier, standing tall.

          Yessir, I'll improve.

     I'll be the best.

Far Away

I can't keep on running away,

from the mistakes that haunt us both.

I wish we could go back

and change the past.

But life would be all too easy

if that was the case.

I just want you to be that man again.

Tell me you'd go to hell and back

just to hold my hand.

Sometimes that four letter word

just causes too much damage.

Mend me up, hold me high.

Lean out a window for the

air that keeps us grounded.

Blow out the candles, watch the

fire spread over the velvet.

Everything will be gone in a flash,

just like our lost love.

The buildings burning too fast,

save yourself, leave me behind.

It's not worth the effort to

save me from your intentions.

You burned me long before

the flames touched my skin.

These Times

Until the dawn breaks

and the waves crash again the sand

is when I'll hold my breath when

it comes to saying I do.

It'll be another day to sing

about the magic that will be

you and me. I feel like I've

been locked up tight in a

place where sunshine only

visits when all is wrong. But

in your words, my darkness

breaks apart, showing me the

way into your arms. Your words

hit me like gravity pulling away,

bringing me into the right state of

mind, powerful and beautiful.

We've been in the same positions,

holding each other to the core, knowing

that this four letter word can

tear apart the strongest of people.

Let me fall into your world and have

time stop just for a minute. Let me

be the one, loving you when you're

weak. Slowing it down, holding still.

Take a step forward, I'll make sure you

don't step backwards. Hearts are

hard to mend, but I'll let time do

the dirty work. I'll be the one to keep

it in working condition. For as long

as you need, you'll find a friend

in me. I'm telling you these times

are hard but I promise they will pass.

Asthma Attack

Hustle, bustle.

Hold back. Strike.

Run away from yourself.

Quick, duck.

Granite hits hard.

Step one, break it back.

Step two, forget how to breath.

Step three, be yourself.

Give up the innocence.

Follow your dark hole.

Acid runs down your cheek.

Jump, crack, lava.

Follow me to the grave.

Your feet dance with grace.

Bipolar rain fall.

Sunny, thunder, twister.

Regret it all.

Realize the wrongs.

But don't forget.

Stand up. Be strong.

Hold yourself. 

Say you're sorry in the wind.

Apologies.

Step four, breathe.

Step Right Up

                                                                  Night blankets the
                                                   shimmering skies. Tents of red and gold
                                                               rise into the midnight air.
                                                 Spinning wheels of  colored sugar, strung
                                                               up upon swirled cones.
                                             Step right up, test your strength. Battle the odds,
                                                                 conquer your fears.
                                               Swallow fire, walk across the tightest rope.
                                                              Wonder the grounds to
                                             discover the mysteries hidden in the wind.
                                                             Fortune tellers have no
                                               crystal balls, only imagination for you to
                                                              hear what you need.
                                                To get you coming back to the cards
                                                       and believing the answers
                                             are just in your palms. But take a seat.
                                                             Sit back and relax.
                                            Watch as the red nosed creatures contort
                                                     themselves into the simpliest
                                           of dreams. Stumble over the trampolines
                                                       and shoot out of cannons.
                                       Risk it all just for a simple spot inthe moonlight