Today, I lost someone very dear to me. She was my best friend. I had had her since I was 5. She was my baby. My cat, Kitty. A beautiful black and white tiger with a purr that could be heard from miles away. She loved every single person that came into her life. She had to rub against your legs and cuddle into your arms. She had been there throughout my bullying. She always clawed at my door until I let her in. She always knew when I was crying or felt hurt or was in pain. She always made sure she was there for me. She slept with me so many times. She gave me so much love. I grew up with her. I remember the day we brought her home. She was so small as was I. At first, we were rough with each other but we grew to have a special bond. She was such an amazing cat. Nobody will understand how much I loved her. Nobody will understand the bond the two of us had. She came to me when I needed her most and loved me more than I could ask.
Right before we brought her into the exam room, she lifted a paw up and touched my face. She looked me right in the eyes, almost as if she knew what was going to happen and she wanted me to know she loved me. That she would be okay. That was always her thing. She always put her paw to my cheek and knew it would make me smile. Having her do that one last time, it broke me down. Her eyes were glossy, almost as if she was ready to cry. I felt her saying, stay strong mommy. I love you and I'll miss you but I'll be okay.
The last words I told to her spoke of how much she meant to me. How she was my best friend and how much I loved her. She will always be in my heart. She was my first pet and I loved her more than anything. I will always love her. The last hours with her were precious. I held her. Let her feel the love. Listened to her purr. I knew she was in pain but in my mind, being in my arms and being next to my heart, I would like to think she felt safe. She felt warm. She felt the love and didn't think about the pain. Her back leg was so broken, her foot was almost detached. At the vet, she said there was so much wrong with her that it was her time. I knew it would be hard leaving there without her but she wouldn't be in pain anymore. She'd be with my grammie in heaven. She could chase endless mice and eat pounds of tuna and make friends with all the other cat angels. I also know she will look over me and send me a simple cuddle, a simple ray of light when I need it most.
Rest in peace to my baby, my Kitty.
I love you more than you could ever know.
My baby and me.
Kitty Holmes
Kitty Holmes
I love you, beautiful <3
June 1999-May 24, 2013 <3
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