Loss of a Beautiful Pet

Since this is my main blog, I find it appropriate to post this here.

Today, I lost someone very dear to me. She was my best friend. I had had her since I was 5. She was my baby. My cat, Kitty. A beautiful black and white tiger with a purr that could be heard from miles away. She loved every single person that came into her life. She had to rub against your legs and cuddle into your arms. She had been there throughout my bullying. She always clawed at my door until I let her in. She always knew when I was crying or felt hurt or was in pain. She always made sure she was there for me. She slept with me so many times. She gave me so much love. I grew up with her. I remember the day we brought her home. She was so small as was I. At first, we were rough with each other but we grew to have a special bond. She was such an amazing cat. Nobody will understand how much I loved her. Nobody will understand the bond the two of us had. She came to me when I needed her most and loved me more than I could ask.

Right before we brought her into the exam room, she lifted a paw up and touched my face. She looked me right in the eyes, almost as if she knew what was going to happen and she wanted me to know she loved me. That she would be okay. That was always her thing. She always put her paw to my cheek and knew it would make me smile. Having her do that one last time, it broke me down. Her eyes were glossy, almost as if she was ready to cry. I felt her saying, stay strong mommy. I love you and I'll miss you but I'll be okay.

The last words I told to her spoke of how much she meant to me. How she was my best friend and how much I loved her. She will always be in my heart. She was my first pet and I loved her more than anything. I will always love her. The last hours with her were precious. I held her. Let her feel the love. Listened to her purr. I knew she was in pain but in my mind, being in my arms and being next to my heart, I would like to think she felt safe. She felt warm. She felt the love and didn't think about the pain. Her back leg was so broken, her foot was almost detached. At the vet, she said there was so much wrong with her that it was her time. I knew it would be hard leaving there without her but she wouldn't be in pain anymore. She'd be with my grammie in heaven. She could chase endless mice and eat pounds of tuna and make friends with all the other cat angels. I also know she will look over me and send me a simple cuddle, a simple ray of light when I need it most.

Rest in peace to my baby, my Kitty.
I love you more than you could ever know.

My baby and me.
Kitty Holmes

I love you, beautiful <3

June 1999-May 24, 2013 <3

Hard to Love

I know I'm hard to love,
I don't make it easy.
My tendencies to wreck
walls never fail
to crumble
on
top of beautiful disasters. I took
too many decisions for granted,
ashamed for never letting
myself surrender. The
day you
were
introduced was a change written in
ink. You looked like a
thousand stars, trying to
find the right
thing to
say.
Can't you see what you've done
to me? Driving me up
the walls and caressing
down every curve.
I'm on
my
knees, begging please don't forget me.
Our nights never fail to
make me certain that
with you I'll
never regret
a
single movement. You're forever imprinted within
the boundaries of my heart.
That with you, I'll
never know the
meaning of
alone.

Turquoise

Turquoise

Nature sounds of blowing

breezes and singing birds.

Mossy trees wave softly

to the bumbling bees.

Underneath the branches waits

a girl of elegance

with turquoise hair flowing

behind her ears like

a symphony. Her smile

makes the flower bloom

radiant hues. Her soft

spoken voice smiles to

the sun, making the

rays shine brighter. She

dances elegantly as if

she were flying, disappearing

into the trees to

spread her wings and

continue her warm love

for the scenery which

surrounded her. She is

a mystery which comes

and goes like night

and day. The sun

sets as she blends

into the forest to

wish her goodnight in

the blanketed darkness. Stars

sparkle just for a

glimpse of the beautiful

girl, in hopes someday

she'll grace them with

her precious lullabies and

sing them to sleep.